tag!

nana and ica tagged me. looks like i haf to get this over and done with:)

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose six people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. I have a weird obsession with nice smelling scents. perfumes, body sprays, candles. I really can't resist it. I like smelling nice. And if I think I smell even a little bad, I won't even sit near people. haha!

2. Since i have this weird obsession of smelling nice, i once had a dream to become a chemist and create my own line of products which consists of perfumes, body sprays, shampoo, body shower, lotion etcetcetc..

3. I can be adventurous at times. like when i'm not so lazy. I really would like to go everywhere! places near and far. try new stuff (that does not bring me harm), meet new people, scare the wits out of me. I want to bungee jump, sky dive, I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD! except i don't have the money for it. damn! haha!

4. Eventhough I'm adventurous, i am a scaredy-cat. this is when the two personalities collide. I'll tempt myself to go watch a horror movie, but i end up watching it with my hands covering my face, peeping through the cracks between my fingers. haha! so x yah la ajak i pergi tgk cerita hantu. nnt hilang kemacho-an i. haha! ohh and i'm scared of cockroaches. especially the ones that can fly and is like friggin big. UGGHHH.

5. I'm a freak when it comes to certain stuff. I like my stuff to be in order. I don't like it to be messy. well in other words i'm organized, or so nana said. haha! so that's why i prefer to have a room of my own rather than sharing. gaaah! nnt masuk college nnt macam manalah nk hidup=S

6. I actually hate sharing toilets with my siblings. hahaha! I get pissed off when the toilet is dirty=P

7. I play sudoku when I'm not doing anything since I'm not using my brain as much. I have a small fear that if I don't do something with my brain, i might just end up being dumb and that all my brain cells will die. HAHA!

8. I dance when no one's watching. not really.. I still dance when my brother is around. Haha! heyyy its a form of exercise right?

9. I'm glad that i inherited my mother's genes of being athletic. thanks ma! I run, and WAS able to run long distances. haha! now i'm just plain lazy. so u can say that i have lower stamina now. damn! have to start going jogging again.

10. I like spending time with myself sometimes. Only at certain times though. I've gone shopping, watched a movie, took long walks alone and I don't feel alone. I'm comfortable with myself:)

11. I RARELY start texting people first. If i do, its either because I want something or I need to ask something, or just consider yourself lucky if i text you for no reason:) I'm not a text person i guess. I prefer calling, IM-ing etc.. If i really miss you, chances are is that i'll call or write on your wall at facebook. HAHA!

12. Sometimes i feel self-conscious about how i am and how i look.

13. If i want something, I'll work my ass off to get it. If its something I need to buy and I think its a necessity, then I would buy it as soon as I can or else I won't feel at peace. haha! And I don't really like to ask my parents for stuff.

14. I think SOMETIMES its easier to make friends with guys. I really don't know why i click faster with guys than with girls. I have to be smart in choosing friends i guess.

15. I sometimes feel more comfortable with them than with them. HAHA! Don't need to understand.. Only for me to know and not for you to find out=P

16. I like to help people. Even if we just met. If its within my capability to help you than i will. Even if its the silliest things:)

ooooh that was fun. hahaha! now to tag people..

1. Kak Long..cause i know she has A LOT of weird things to say about her.

2. Adik..cause he has a crooked and demented way of seeing things

3. Lya..cause i just like what she has to say.

4. Intan..mungkin sebab i lama tak dengar cerita2 dia. rindu! and mungkin sebab i rasa kadang2 dia bosan. so harap benda ni dpt mengisi masa lapang u. hahaha!

5. Aida..maybe cause it would be interesting to know what she has to say.

6. Shat cause I would love to know what you're up to and what you're thinking

enjoy people!!:)

oh.

malam itu, saya tak rasa macam nak makan. takde selera..

malam itu, saya rasa tak boleh nk tdo.

malam itu, ada kawan saya tanya ttbe,
"yan, there's this boy, he's sick and he knows he's about to die but he likes this girl. In his condition, do you think they should take it further?"
to which i answered truthfully. not giving my usual stupid answers.
"well, Tuhan itu maha berkuasa. Dia boleh buat apa2 Dia nk. The guy can't be too sure that he is gonna die first. God can even take the girl's life away before he takes the guy's. we never know. Semuanya di tangan Tuhan."

ttbe ayah turun. i didn't know how to react when ayah told me pak long meninggal. i was shocked. too shocked to even cry. i couldn't believe it. it seemed unreal to me. in a state of denial maybe?

even when i got there i couldn't bring myself to go in the house. i stayed outside for about an hour or so. finally i gathered all the courage i could and went inside the house. and sat down. and saw him. and cried. it was only when i saw him, that i believed and i accepted that he is gone. truly gone..

sebelum balik, mak long said to me, while hugging me tightly, "jangan lupa pak long k?"
it was heartbreaking hearing her say that. how could i forget pak long? don't worry, i know i won't.

my uncle, was a good man. great in fact. a happy person who loves to laugh. the day before he went, ada a small gathering to which i didn't attend. had to go to work. ikut cakap farah, masa dekat kampung pandan(my stepgrandmother's house tempat gathering diadakan hari sebelum itu) dia happy macam biasa, siap boleh gelak-gelak and main dengan rabbit. ohh sedihnya tak dapat jumpa dia sebelum tu. i'm gonna miss him. i am missing him. takziah especially to mak long, abg saddiq, kak wani and izzat.

Al-Fatihah.

karenah di tempat kerjaku~

" heyy yan! hows work today?"
that seems to be one of the most common question being asked now. aha! i know its because i rarely see people now. sorry:) kadang-kadang tu penat. bukannye apa=D

well work has its ups and downs. sometimes its just bored as hell. sometimes its okay. but i wouldn't say its fun. haha! cause its WORK kot. i would gladly spend my day at home, lounging around, being a couch potato that i was before.. or hang with my friends. whichever beats going to work. haih dah muak tgk dinding luar ikea tuu.

but then there are stuff that makes going to work more bearable. i have what people call "a cool boss". riiite. suuure. euw. haha!
"ehh yann! tu boss u ke? mcm coool je?!"
ahha! rite ppl. why dont you take my place and layan him.=P

assistant manager i pun gila2 sikit orang nye. boleh dia main campak-campak ice kat orang.
"tu laah kak fazilah. kalau sy ckp sy boleh tangkap ice tu guna blender mesti bolehh punya. nasib je ice tu terlompat keluar balik blender."

abg syam yang terlampauu lah senyap tetapi suka senyum. kalau dia ckp ngn i mmg lah terkejut! hahaha!

naseela yg gila yg keje kat kedai sebelah. hahaha! kalau x de dia, mmg lahhh bosan keje. dia dgn jerit2 dia yg membuat kan tempat tu terasa mcm pasar mlm.
"CANDY CANDY CANDYYYY..pagi-pagi buta. CANDY CANDY candi. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA!"
hahaha! senget punya perempuan. tapi serious kalau dia takde, i might even just die of boredom there.

kadang2 tu.. terkenalah skali ngn teka teki bodoh2 punya.
>teka teki org dari cupcake chic
"wehhh diyana, kalau lembu mkn rumput, kambing mkn rumput, unta mkn apa?dekat padang pasir x de rumput."

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jawapan: unta mkn spaghetti...hishhh! boleh tak mcm tu pulak jwpn? pnat org gaduh ngn dia kata mana leh buat jawapan sesuka hati. kat padang pasir manade spaghetti kan. well, rupa-rupanya, he calls kak fazilah tu unta for some reason..

> teka teki drpd org cupcake chic tu lagi
"wehhh diyana. kan transformer tu laki kan. mesti ada kakak atau adik perempuan. apa nama diorang?"

pnat gak ckp transformer tu anak sorg. tapi last2 dia bgtaw jawapan.

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jawapan: transistor atau lebih difahami dgn trans"sister" -.-

>teka teki drpd naseela semasa dia bosan x de customer.
"yann. simpang apa paling besar?" (though i think she meant lengkok apa paling besar)

jawapan: THE CURVE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!(seela and her big jolly laugh :O)

hahahaha!

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hari tu noh drpd band hujan lalu.

seela: weh weh wehh yannn! hujaaan!
yan: tahuuuu! masa kasi flyer tadi terpegang tgn dia. eeek!

keje situu. byk karenahh dia. gila2 org disekeliling. tapi ok gak, kadang-kadang dpt cupcake free..semalam dapat chocolate free..chocolate expired drpd seela-.-

itulahh hidup bekerja di situ if ur wondering. sumtimes its not as bad. cheers~ :)

buildings, roads, cars and ice-creams:)

Its really nice to know when you have someone you can depend on even when the world is just full of crap. I know i have people i can really depend on. If things don't go right for me, i know there will always be someone to help me up if i fall. There will always be someone who has my back. Always. And i appreciate them. I really do:) Though sometimes i do take them for granted, but i try not to. Human nature rite? Sometimes u just forget.

Ohh.. I've been sharing my feelings with too many people. blahh. and somehow it sounds different from the other side of the story. whatever. whats been done is done. At the end of the day, you know who u can actually call a friend and who's just there for the sake of being there.

anywayyy, i really miss my bestfriend. ohh good to know i still have her around. that we're still the same. that nothing has changed between us. it doesnt take much to keep a friendship going. its times like this you know whose gonna stick with u a while longer and whose not. we've been through some rough patches, and we're still friends. good to know:)

malam itu pergi hartamas ngn dia. ada satu tempat kat mont kiara where u can see the view of the twin towers. and roads. and cars. so we just stood there, eating our ice cream, talking, laughing, catching up. sejuuk rasa hati akhirnya dapat jumpa dia. to let it all out. to tell whats been going on with me, and not to be lectured back. i sgt syg u, i really do :)

DNA mixer:)

I have always been a THRILLSEEKER:) i'm serious! my family used to go to the genting theme park quite frequently when i was younger. yeaahh. i didn't get to go on the "cool" rides. sebab..terlampau pendek. hahaha! i'll just stand there, wait for my parents and sister until the ride ends. watching the ride twist and turn testing the riders level of bravery. yeahhh. gila whatever kan. and the rides i get to go on is always the kids rides. suckyy..

i was really excited the first time i went on a roller coaster. ohhh the adrenaline rush i felt. aha! felt good too that FINALLY i was tall enough. hahahaha! i guess thats why i have always been a thrill seeker. cause of my height=P

so yesterday was my off day. how sweet of them to choose a day to go out on my off day=P we went to times square. zanna, nazmi, nad, manja, acap, zharif, nishaan, harris, izzat and i. it was a last minute plan. seriously. zanna planned the trip. she texted around 12 saying we might be heading to times square. then the plan changed to wednesday. so ok fine la. at around 1.30pm nad called saying she's on her way to pick me up. terkejut ohh. dia kata plan da change balik. dah la belum mandi kan.(gila kantoi mandi lambat) haha!

so off we went. trying to scare our guts off. haha! i perasan semua rides kat times square semua pusing2 nye jenis. well except for the bumper car..and the roller coaster since it goes up and down jugak. but yeaahh, the others was either 360 degrees horizontally or 360 degrees vertically. ohh there's this ride called DNA mixer. tak tahaan ohhh. ride tu cam sial sikit. it goes 360 vertically. and its not big rounds where u feel like ur falling. this is small rounds. where u just feel like someones trying to mix up ur innards. hahaha! trust me, u dont even feel like ur falling, not until the thing stops midway suddenly and ur just hanging there facing down. otherwise, u just feel..mixed up. like in a washing machine. hahaha!

we had our dinner there too. we ate steamboat at johnny's. the food tasted better since we were sharing. bukannye slalu share makanan ramai2 rite? usually people just order seperate dishes and eat it seperately. hahaha! the food tasted better since this waiter, hassan, kinda has a thing for nishaan. THANK YOU NISHAAN! sebab u hassan kasi kte free ayam. nasib baik i tak kasi hassan nombor u. kalau tak habis laah u. hahahaahhaha! no hard feelings ehh nish? just playing around with u=P the day turned out to be fun. terubat jugak rindu i kat kawan2 i yesterday. but belum jumpa semua kawan so ada lagi sisa baki rindu tu:)

so whoever wants to find sumone to go on thrill rides, find me! hahaha! i'll be happy to accompany u. hehe! till next time! chalos~

we get on:)

video ni comel. tgk la. haha!

p/s: thank u kak long tunjuk video ni sblm yan tdo dan masa tgh mamai.suka:)

hari ini.

i'm bored. like FREAKING bored. kalau keje shift pagi, malam mesti bosan. i miss my friends. semuaaa! i don't miss school. i just miss the people. I miss people i lepak with. rindu lepak jugak. rindu orang yang xde kene mengena ngn kerja. aihh. kenapa malam ni touchy sgt. eeei. gila pelik! lain kali je lah blog. gaaahh~

hari pertama:)

today is my first day as a working girl. independent working girl. skarang mak saya tak boleh menolong kalau ter'screw up'. penaat. tapi best. rasanye lah. haha! dah terlampau blur. so lain kali je la blog. ttbe malas yg teramat.

ohh hari ni minum strawberry smoothie chiller. sedap ohh. sebab buat sendiri. haha! skarang kena pergi menghafal cara nk bwt 40 jenis minuman. damn.

of overjealous girlfriends..

I AM BORED. internet slow, facebook slow, youtube slow, semua slow. so i'm gonna start blabbering again.

so let's just talk about whats happening around. please bear in mind i'm not talking about anyone specifically. its just generally talking about people. so jangan lah terasa tak pepasal ehh?

i never understood overjealous girlfriends. seriously. especially kalau that guy ada a girl bestfriend waay before he had the girlfriend. like helloooo, they're like bestfriends. nk sampai tahap jadi bestfriends tu pun doesnt happen overnight. so if they were to have a thing for each other, it could've happen before the dude found the girlfriend wouldnt it? they could've hit it off before the dude found the girlfriend. i'm quite sure it would. so really, there's nothing to be jealous there. hebat sgt ke girlfriend tu nk putuskan hubungan friendship boyfriend dia. is she very sure that she's gonna be there for the guy forever? get a grip weyy. the guy chose u already. anywayy, there's like an unwritten rule for bestfriends of the opposite sex.

rule#1 : bestfriends don't fall for bestfriends
rule#2 : bestfriends don't stop being bestfriends for their other half

well, fine. i made these rules myself. but don't u think it makes sense? but there are a few circumstances where ur allowed to break the rules. hmm, lets take rule#1. if they know and they truly know that the love their feeling is of another kind and not just "i love u means i care for u", then go ahead. ohh and it better be worth it cause let me tell u, relationships, they dont last as long as friendships. unless ur gona marry them that is. hahaha!

bestfriends are usually understanding. if the other half doesn't agree with their better half of having a bestfriend of the opposite sex, then usually the bestfriend would backoff. well as i said, friendships last longer than relationships. well at least at my age. i know this is confusing but just try to get the picture here okay? im just blabbering anywayss.

well at least kene la kasi the girlfriend a right to be jealous kan? just shows how much they care for the guy. well i'll give a situation where its reasonable to feel jealous. lets say the guy found sumone new. sumone he met after he met the girlfriend. n he's getting pretty close to the new girl and the new girl doesn't even give a thought of being close to the girlfriend too, then i think its okay to be jealous. rite? well ada lagi laa byk sbb but this is just a similar but kinda different case than the above mentioned.

aahhh i'm just crapping. i'm watching too much tv. too much soap opera. and maybe this time i don't wanna lose another bestfriend? not that i am or even close to it. but its just a knock on the head for some people. ohh, i'm reminding you again, as i write this post, i'm not thinking of anyone in particular. so this post is just a general post. tak mengutuk, tak mengata. but this is what i think :)

ohh jobs..

this long post doesn't serve any meaning to anyone except me. im just blabbering. so if u haf better things to do, i say don't read this post. aha! =P

aaah. penat penat. cari kerja bukan lah sesuatu yang mudah. hahahaha! yeaahh, this is what i had in mind. "i want to work in a coffee shop. and i don't want to work in ou sbb ramai org suka pergi sana.so no biggie, at least i know what i want to do". so what better place to go other than starbucks sumwhere kat curve riite? ohh i also applied dekat coffeebean, cupcakechic, baskin robins, and borders. just in case

hmmm, if u think skali apply dah boleh dapat cam memang salaah laa. or maybe ur just lucky. so yeah, i applied at all the starbucks in curve and ikano. pft. ada 3 je pun. haha! starbucks ikano called me back. he asked me to come back cause he wanted to meet me. so i went. lets call the dude who talked to me "the dude".

the dude : we're currently looking for a part-timer
me : yeah I'm more interested in doing part time actually.
the dude : we need someone for the weekends only. saturdays and sundays. so if u want to work extra hours this is not the right store for u

pfttt. memang tak la. itss soooo besides the point of me looking for a job if im only making myself busy for two days a week. some ppl told me to take the job and go find another part-time job sumwhere else. tapi fikir balik, gle xde life nnt. i mean i still do want a life you know. the other starbucks branches didn't call me back. soo starbucks was out of the question.

hmmm. i dapat baskin robins gak. the pay was crap. who the hell pays the worker RM3.50 an hour. thts like slavery man. hahaha! well they say the good side is that they pay every two weeks. as far as i'm concern, its doesn't make a difference and its still crappy.

at this point of time, im already desperate for a job. theres soo many things on my list that i need to buy. adoii. since starbucks was out of the question, i wanted to work at coffeebeans badly. the manager dah interview i sme. she said she needed sumone mid jan. after waiting for what felt like forever i decided to go back there to ask them if they really need sumone mid jan. and whether they're gona hire me if they need sumone then. i went there and the manager wasnt in yet. so they told me to come back in a few hours. ohh btw, coffeebean's pay RM4.50 per hour.

sementara nk menunggu coffeebean's manager to come in, i stumbled upon this coffee shop, gloria jean's. haha! mcm la kedai tu tiba2 muncul kan. so i was like, what the heck, apply je la, wont hurt me for trying and its still a coffee shop anyway. the manager was in, he gave me the forms. sebelum isi borang tu, i dgn suka hati nye tanya "rasa boleh dapat keje tak kalau isi borang ni?" to which he answered "insyaAllah bolehh". lepas isi borang tu, dia baca jap patu terus interview.

first question : what do u understand about customer service?
second question: what are the procedures of customer service?

i'm not gona tell u my answers cuz its just full of crap. my brain is trained to give whatever answers eventhough its crappy. ye lahh, dah brape tahun kene tulis karangan and buat pemahaman umum semua. haha! after all that was over and done with, the manager said he'll call me back. ohh, the pay is 5bux an hour. so thaaat, really got me thinking. coffeebean doesnt seem so...yeahh.u get my point rite? hmmm

theennnn, coffeebean called me back, nasib i belum balik. i went there, and they said now they really need workers. so i said i'll reconfirm with them in a few days, i'm currently waiting for another job offer.

during the few days of waiting for gloria's to call, i cudnt decide which to choose if i were to get both. gloria's offers a higher pay, but it wud be less busier la. coffeebean lower pay, but u'd be busy. ohh the conflict=P

so the conclusion of this long post, i chose gloria's. ppl dont usually go there, it would be less tiring, higher pay, and the manager seems funny. i start working tomorrow, tuesday,6th of jan. i'm gonna give my spot at coffeebean's to shah. hopefully shah would impress them (shah has been rejected to all the places he applied for a job.thought i'd help him since he doesnt really care about the pay.)

till then~

say goodbye 2008 and hello 2009

ohhmygod. the internet here can't get any slower than this. well its 4.23 in the morning. i've been having trouble sleeping. its been going on for a while now. i really don't know why i can't sleep. mayb its because i think too much. haha! well i was sleeping, fell asleep around 3. only to be waken by kak long and farah entering the room half an hour later. sumtimes i curse myself for being able to wake up so easily.

well i guess its goodbye to the year 2008. i'm gonna miss it. i'm seriously not ready for 2009. well i was a few days ago. getting in the "i want everything to change next year, a change for the better" mood. but i realized its gonna take a lot more effort and strength cause i noe that for this one, i've gotta face it alone. can't keep on depending on people can i?

a lot has changed really. i remembered how i spent my new years last year. it was different. last year, i really had hopes, aspirations and.. dreams? well i know i was determined. hmm, i spent new years eve with more people last year and not so much on the roller coaster of emotions. well this year? i sumhow feel.. that everything is pointless. haha! i'm not hoping on anything much either. well at least the hoping doesn't start until march. thats when the results are supposedly to be out. erk! =S

who wud have known that i'd spend my last few minutes of 2008 just sitting there alone in my room watching one tree hill? haha! it was fun in a sorta lonely way=P the others went to rasta before going to padang sulaiman or sulei.i didnt feel like another round of shisha at rasta. so i joined them later at sulei. went out at about 11.30.

well this year was different. when i arrived, sumhow they all looked..bored?depressed?sumthing. i dont noe. well xde la semua orang were depressed and bored. but probably the person who was feeling down was the one closest to me. and sumhow this feelings are veryy contagious. hmm, i noe the feeling of being lonely in a place full of people u dont noe. but now i noe the feeling of being lonely around the people u do know. ur friends. i guess it hit me that things are going to change this year. that we are all going our own seperate ways soon. that some of us wont be able to really be there when u need them. that sooner or later u haf to face it alone. or make new friends. whatever suits really. well things change. people change.. and i noe i have to accept it.

mayb its just me. maybe im still on that roller coaster of emotions. well im waiting to get off now. im waiting for it to stop. anytime now.. its really making me tired. its getting boring. besides the soppy emotions and stuff (for me la), the night wasnt that bad. i still spent it with the ppl i really do care about. kinda forgot everything when the fireworks started.

first sports played of the year.. basketball! hahaha! after the fireworks, we went to zaaba to play basketball..in the dark. haha! a nice and healthy way to welcome 2009. bila dah penat main, we just sat in the middle of the court, sang songs, savouring the moment. we went home at about 1.30. mak zharif daa call da wondering what her son is up to=P

i'm gonna miss 2008. its the year where i went for my first concert, learned to be more patient, break some ties, mending some old ones, creating new friendships, being the senior of the school, sitting for spm, enjoying life after spm, had a band, went for prom, lepak till late at night, learned driving, and byk lagi. terlampau byk nak type it all out. 2008 wasn't the greatest year for me but it would still be a year that i'd miss. but i welcome 2009 with open arms, hoping it be better then 2008 or at least just as good. this year, i aim to be a more confident and independant person. more patient and understanding, not to let my emotions get the best of me, to smile more often. to be more open. heyy, i guess i am ready for 2009. i noe i still have a loooong way to go.things dont end here:)