ohhmygod. the internet here can't get any slower than this. well its 4.23 in the morning. i've been having trouble sleeping. its been going on for a while now. i really don't know why i can't sleep. mayb its because i think too much. haha! well i was sleeping, fell asleep around 3. only to be waken by kak long and farah entering the room half an hour later. sumtimes i curse myself for being able to wake up so easily.
well i guess its goodbye to the year 2008. i'm gonna miss it. i'm seriously not ready for 2009. well i was a few days ago. getting in the "i want everything to change next year, a change for the better" mood. but i realized its gonna take a lot more effort and strength cause i noe that for this one, i've gotta face it alone. can't keep on depending on people can i?
a lot has changed really. i remembered how i spent my new years last year. it was different. last year, i really had hopes, aspirations and.. dreams? well i know i was determined. hmm, i spent new years eve with more people last year and not so much on the roller coaster of emotions. well this year? i sumhow feel.. that everything is pointless. haha! i'm not hoping on anything much either. well at least the hoping doesn't start until march. thats when the results are supposedly to be out. erk! =S
who wud have known that i'd spend my last few minutes of 2008 just sitting there alone in my room watching one tree hill? haha! it was fun in a sorta lonely way=P the others went to rasta before going to padang sulaiman or sulei.i didnt feel like another round of shisha at rasta. so i joined them later at sulei. went out at about 11.30.
well this year was different. when i arrived, sumhow they all looked..bored?depressed?sumthing. i dont noe. well xde la semua orang were depressed and bored. but probably the person who was feeling down was the one closest to me. and sumhow this feelings are veryy contagious. hmm, i noe the feeling of being lonely in a place full of people u dont noe. but now i noe the feeling of being lonely around the people u do know. ur friends. i guess it hit me that things are going to change this year. that we are all going our own seperate ways soon. that some of us wont be able to really be there when u need them. that sooner or later u haf to face it alone. or make new friends. whatever suits really. well things change. people change.. and i noe i have to accept it.
mayb its just me. maybe im still on that roller coaster of emotions. well im waiting to get off now. im waiting for it to stop. anytime now.. its really making me tired. its getting boring. besides the soppy emotions and stuff (for me la), the night wasnt that bad. i still spent it with the ppl i really do care about. kinda forgot everything when the fireworks started.
first sports played of the year.. basketball! hahaha! after the fireworks, we went to zaaba to play basketball..in the dark. haha! a nice and healthy way to welcome 2009. bila dah penat main, we just sat in the middle of the court, sang songs, savouring the moment. we went home at about 1.30. mak zharif daa call da wondering what her son is up to=P
i'm gonna miss 2008. its the year where i went for my first concert, learned to be more patient, break some ties, mending some old ones, creating new friendships, being the senior of the school, sitting for spm, enjoying life after spm, had a band, went for prom, lepak till late at night, learned driving, and byk lagi. terlampau byk nak type it all out. 2008 wasn't the greatest year for me but it would still be a year that i'd miss. but i welcome 2009 with open arms, hoping it be better then 2008 or at least just as good. this year, i aim to be a more confident and independant person. more patient and understanding, not to let my emotions get the best of me, to smile more often. to be more open. heyy, i guess i am ready for 2009. i noe i still have a loooong way to go.things dont end here:)
well i guess its goodbye to the year 2008. i'm gonna miss it. i'm seriously not ready for 2009. well i was a few days ago. getting in the "i want everything to change next year, a change for the better" mood. but i realized its gonna take a lot more effort and strength cause i noe that for this one, i've gotta face it alone. can't keep on depending on people can i?
a lot has changed really. i remembered how i spent my new years last year. it was different. last year, i really had hopes, aspirations and.. dreams? well i know i was determined. hmm, i spent new years eve with more people last year and not so much on the roller coaster of emotions. well this year? i sumhow feel.. that everything is pointless. haha! i'm not hoping on anything much either. well at least the hoping doesn't start until march. thats when the results are supposedly to be out. erk! =S
who wud have known that i'd spend my last few minutes of 2008 just sitting there alone in my room watching one tree hill? haha! it was fun in a sorta lonely way=P the others went to rasta before going to padang sulaiman or sulei.i didnt feel like another round of shisha at rasta. so i joined them later at sulei. went out at about 11.30.
well this year was different. when i arrived, sumhow they all looked..bored?depressed?sumthing. i dont noe. well xde la semua orang were depressed and bored. but probably the person who was feeling down was the one closest to me. and sumhow this feelings are veryy contagious. hmm, i noe the feeling of being lonely in a place full of people u dont noe. but now i noe the feeling of being lonely around the people u do know. ur friends. i guess it hit me that things are going to change this year. that we are all going our own seperate ways soon. that some of us wont be able to really be there when u need them. that sooner or later u haf to face it alone. or make new friends. whatever suits really. well things change. people change.. and i noe i have to accept it.
mayb its just me. maybe im still on that roller coaster of emotions. well im waiting to get off now. im waiting for it to stop. anytime now.. its really making me tired. its getting boring. besides the soppy emotions and stuff (for me la), the night wasnt that bad. i still spent it with the ppl i really do care about. kinda forgot everything when the fireworks started.
first sports played of the year.. basketball! hahaha! after the fireworks, we went to zaaba to play basketball..in the dark. haha! a nice and healthy way to welcome 2009. bila dah penat main, we just sat in the middle of the court, sang songs, savouring the moment. we went home at about 1.30. mak zharif daa call da wondering what her son is up to=P
i'm gonna miss 2008. its the year where i went for my first concert, learned to be more patient, break some ties, mending some old ones, creating new friendships, being the senior of the school, sitting for spm, enjoying life after spm, had a band, went for prom, lepak till late at night, learned driving, and byk lagi. terlampau byk nak type it all out. 2008 wasn't the greatest year for me but it would still be a year that i'd miss. but i welcome 2009 with open arms, hoping it be better then 2008 or at least just as good. this year, i aim to be a more confident and independant person. more patient and understanding, not to let my emotions get the best of me, to smile more often. to be more open. heyy, i guess i am ready for 2009. i noe i still have a loooong way to go.things dont end here:)
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