NOW i feel better:)

Ur a desperate b*tch and u noe that.
Ur a big stupid d*ckhead but ur too thickheaded to noe that.
so both of u, not so bad i guess. actually, its just perfect.

i feel so much better now its out of my system:)

dah habis fikir dahh?

hari ni jumpa qeeelaaaaa! ohhh rindu siots. igtnye minah tu dah cam x hidup dah. lama x dgr cte dia. ye laa, dia bukan nk text org or call or reply or anything. hahaha! ohh well, rindu sgt:)

so we went out to eat. to catch up with each other and stuff. nad, ica, qeela and i. qeela is going to national service tomorrow. kat sabahh ooohhh. best!.. i think.. first we went to mcD mutiara damansara. ramaaaaii. so we decided to drive thru je lah. patu mkn dlm kete sambil borak2. patuu u noe, drive thru mutiara u have to talk to tht stupid tv or wtv to order rite? nnt keluar lahh suara orang yg akan tnye what u want to order.. and tadi, cam that operator whose suppose to ask our order wasn't there. so this was how it went..

nad : helllooooooo. selamat tengah hariiii. se-la-mat te-ngaah- haa-riiiii?
yan : x de org nk layan kte aa. mana org tu?
qeela : kite kene ckp kat tv ni ke?
nad : ye laaa..
*ica gelak2*
qeela : ting tong ting tong tiiiingg toong. helllooooooo!
*ktorang sme dah gelak-gelak*
operator mcd : selamat tengah hari. ye bang, ye kak nk apa?(dlm kete tu x de laki taw)
nad : mmmm. ica kau nk apa?
ica : mmmm. aku nk spicy chicken laa.
operator mcd : bila dah habis fikir cakap ye.
nad : oh satu spicy chicken
operator mcd: ohh dah habis fikir ehh?
yan : haha! jom kte g tempat lain laa.
qeela : x pe la kte nk g mcD centrepoint . bye!!
*kte sme gelak. nad pun bergerak keluar dari tempat drive thru.*
qeela : weh weh weh. tutup muka wehh! HAHAHAHA! kalau rakam sure kelakarkan?

the conversation was sumthing like that. i mean i cant remember word by word. haha! maybe the way i told the story made it not so funny. but if u were there, ohh sakit perut gelak.then yes of course, we went to mcd centrepoint. cuba kalau kte patah balik patu cakap, " yeaa kte dah habis fikir, can we order now?" =P

anywayy qeela, haf fun at sabah. haha! call me! write to me. whatever.. cuz u reminded me of how much i actually miss u:)

jumper:)

hmmm.not much to say today. since i haven't done anything exciting really. yesterday and today was.. i dont noe really. time i needed for me to get back on my feet? and i am. honestly i am:) music helps

aahh...im over it.i'm OVER everything that i felt screwed up about. it took me longer than i expected. hmm. i promised myself that i'd only allow myself to feel screwed up for only a night, but it took me two days. but that's still exceptable to me. it used to take me longer. i'm getting better at this. hahaha! but i'm fine now. with everything.

aahh. yesterday my mum and i finally finished watching one tree hill season two. hahaha! yeaahh. we're are two silly one tree hill addicts. but i'm happy with it. watching one tree hill together is our bonding sessions. and its when we usha andy together cuz he's cute. hahaha! tak bleh bla kan usha guys with ur mum :)

song of the day today, jumper by third eye blind. haha! best :)

hari ni i ngn nad pg makan nachos kat kota damansara. lupa nk pg atm. nasib baik cukup duit nk bayar =P
then we went back to her house to watch a stupid, funny, bangang, movie she bought at jakarta. scarlett johansson ada berlakon in that movie. mm. i told u nad, juan antonio or wtv he's name was wanted a threesome=P

*
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.

a DOLLOP of emotions?

have u ever had that small little feeling in your heart that ur missing sumthing or sumone but u really don't noe what or who. cause there is really nothing to miss. everything is already around u. but somehow there's just that empty spot in ur head or heart, whatever suits u, that u noe there is something missing or that ur missing. mmm. could it only be my hormones? probably.. i really honestly don't noe.

kak long balik semalam, so finally dapat kemas bilik. yeaahh, the whole time she was here i didn't bother to clean my room. kinda gave up since she doesn't have space to put all her stuff so its just everywhere. i now feel at peace since my room is clean:) it even smells of apple blossom. peaceful indeed:)

then i went to ou around 1? nad, zanna, manja, n haz was there. we watched yes man. yes yes yes YES! hahahaa! lets just learn how to say yes for the time being=P funny movie. perempuan tu comel=P no im not gay but jim carrey wasn't worth usha-ing. he looked kinda old. then we went to yippee cup for drinks. hahaha! manjanye bubble tea pelik=P but it wasn't that bad actually. so we talked and talked. found out sum stuff that kinda shocked me. but i'll live :)

patuu we went to rasta. met up with arina. minuum lagii. makan lagiii, shishaaa lagi..hahaha! shisha kat rasta rasa cam crap. arang dia cam pelik. soo rasa tak smooth. ble nk balik la baru benda tuu rasa sedap. pfftt. sesungguhnya shisha itu tak bagus and its a sign=S

nad actually allowed me to drive home. drive auto sedap. haha! ringan compared to a manual. x yah tekan clutch bodo tu. hahahaha! ble sampai rumah, baring atas katil in the CLEAN room sambil dgr lagu yuna. sumhow her songs relaxes me. felt at peace. although i was taking in like LOTSA mixed emotions at that time. mmm. masa tu tgh gundah gelana sket. ahaha!

at the end of the day, u noe u have someone to share ur problems with. eventtho she might be facing the same thing in a different sorta way. i love u babe;)

kita hanya kawan:)

It was a sunday, baru balik melaka, pergi curve sat ngn kak long and adik. Didn’t do much. Duduk sana teman kak long ngn adik sampai kat movie patu chow pegi mkn ice cream. kak long belanja! gave the money to me. hehe. she felt bad that i wasn't watching the movie with them i suppose? or mayb she justs so so so LOVE me. anywaayy, since i was broke and the ice cream was on her, the ice-cream sumhow tasted better. Yummm! :)

. on the way to curve. adik memang insane XD

. kak long, adik dgn ABG lula? *ehem* *terbatuk2*

note to self : kte kene hormat orang yang lagi tua dan panggil abang =P

.yuuummmmm =d

. layan je mkn ice cream time mendung n tak panas. aha!

then chem, kasyah ngn hadi picked me up from curve. Pg lepak skejap:) pegi padang athinahapan. Saja lepak2. nak mendalamkan pengetahuan about guitars n music? Probably. Haha! Was raining, so kte duduk kat slide tuu sambil dierang main guitar. And ada laa a few other people kat sana gak. Layaaan woo, just sitting there listening to music. Dah la hujan kan:) don’t really need a conversation to make me feel comfortable. Just felt like closing my eyes, listen to the music, get lost in it. Hehe! I guess music connects us.

. lets make music..

. while its raining..

. if it makes us happy :)

. chem's guitar has a life of its own..it smokes =_="

. tgk kiri..

. tgk kanan..

. tgk bawahh.. music all around :)

ohh masa tu they were playing hotel california.

anywaayy, i noe that people judge. no matter who they are to me, they tend to judge. whatever i do, whatever i say. ohhh well.. i guess i have to live with that rite? itulah manusia. natural behaviour they say. mmm, asal i bahagia buat benda i tahu tak salah, and as long as u dont physically and mentally disturb me go ahead think what u wanna think, i'm fine with it :)

in a totally unrelated matter, i should really stop reading what i noe might hurt me. goyah sial =S

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANJA!!

or at least happy belated birthday. hehe! manja's birthday is actually on the 18th of dec. ye.. lambat update lagi. dah cite basi tahuu. haha!

we had a little gathering on the 18th. surprise gathering. ktorang biasa lah suka bwt surprise n mestilah the guest of honor dtg lmbt ;) well who can blame them, they are the guest of honor after all rite? we came to the padang athinahapan at around 9.30 probably? wasn't really looking at the time. bought snacks n drinks. last minute babe, x de pinggan or gelas or anything. teguk sudeyy. hahaha! instead of a cake we bought her an ice cream. u noe, yg dlm cup kecik tuu. hahaha! low budget, sorry nje.

.arina n intan:)


.intan dgn SLR dia. kecoh betul XD


.cards pun dah cukup entertaining:)


. mari kita baring-baring..



.borak-borak



.dan nyanyi-nyanyi:)


so then manja came at about 10.30? around that time. patu kte letak candle kat ice cream yg cenonet n dah cair tuu n sang happy bday. haha! comel in a way i guess :)

so kte duduk2 lepak2 kat court padang athinahapan. played cards(to which i won both games of bluff and poker. hahaha! i rock XP), sang songs. wtv. just lepaking. nothing too fancy or anything. then of course, manja kene pogo.. hehe! yes of course, xkan lah tak kena rite?

. let the pogo-ing start!

. zanna terjatuh..manja's perfect moment for pay back time =P



.snowing in ttdi? =O

.yaya pun kene jugaak XD


. tak rasa macam joker from the batman ke?


. CATFIGHT!=P


the night was messy, smelly and fun i guess. might not have ended smoothly but really, no harm done. one heck of a wild night for me ;)

and manja, enjoy being seventeen. mwah! <3

ttdi's prom nite 2008.

as promised. i'm blogging about prom. yeaahh its a bit outdated since prom was like a WEEK ago. ohh well, blog ni pun baru. soo the next few posts will also be outdated :O

i think prom was FUN! honestly speaking. no offence to the prom committee,but i thought it would actually suck. since i noe the trouble u guys were having. but i guess u guys pulled it off. it was fun and i'm glad i went :)

the theme was masquerade. most people did bring their masks. n their masks was nice n pretty. u noee. the prommy type of masks. haha! well me being me, i didn't even haf one. figured that people won't even notice that i don't actually have one. n i was right. they got tired of holding their masks so there came a point where no one even wore it. aha!

.seela - isn't her mask purdyy? XD


.masquerade huhh? i guess its still a mask rite? aha!


haha! never really thought i'd actually dance like crazy in a dress while wearing heels. god! i really paid the price the next day. jalan pun da cam x betul. mmm. what girls go through to look pretty =P
i think our prom this year was fun-er for the single people who went. eventhough the dance floor was small but we made use of it. we were dancing like mad. haha! u noe the feeling where u don't have to care that u really don't noe how to dance. just lose yourself. have fun. lose that self-conscience feeling u've been bringing along with u since like forever. adrenaline rush some might call it :) but it wasnt all that bad for the couples either. bila lagi nak slow dance right?

.dance!


. like u've never danced before:)


.zanna n mie slow dancing. ohh, hazwan n arina too:)


i don't really have much pictures of prom. took most of the picts from nadia helina. thx dear, i really appreciate u coming n snapping picts of us:)

masa tgh mkn, nad (as in nadhrah) n i realised that we were the only one without a date at our table. so we decided to mingle around. well, she did most of the mingling. me being the lazy one took the easy way n just went to my bandmates=P they entertained me nonetheless and i dont regret spending my prom night with them even for a second (although i did miss out on some pictures=P) ahhhh well..

mmm. naseela won the best dressed for girls. gurtej best dressed for guys, liyana the prom queen and tim the prom king. congrats ppl >.< .liyana the prom queen and her date, faez.

.seela - best dressed


. manja n her band



prom is a night to remember. at least it is for me:)

meet THE STELLARS:)

mmm. so this is how it started. About a week before SPM (ye laa, tinggal seminggu lagi tapi belum sedar kann=P) hadi, kasyah n I went jamming. Dah mmg plan nk pg jam lagu the scientist by coldplay and a few other songs. So ble main je lagu the scientist, fuhh! terus jadi n bunyi sedap. Aha! Then we had this crazy idea of performing at the prom. Kinda started as a joke, well at least to me, but then ttbe semua orang gigih. So apa lagi kan, semangat lah jugak nk perform ni.hahaha!

so it was during my spm that they looked for bandmates n stuff. I was updated through out la. It kept changing though, the bandmates. Then, it was finalized,

. bob – vocalist (the one holding the mic obviously. sorry bob couldn't get a decent pict of u)

. kasyah – bassist

. haikal – drummer

. illya hadi – guitarist

. chem. – guitarist

And finally..

. me – keyboardist

And combine us all together, u’ll get the STELLAR XD

Nama sebalik band? Hanya kasyah yg tahu.. well from what I heard the story went like this, manja call hadi nk tahu nama band, hadi called kasyah which at that time kasyah was listening to a song called stellar. Soooooo, that was how we got the name I guess.

Started jamming again during the weekend before prom. Mmm, probably about 4 days before prom. Hahaha! Tak senonoh kan? What? We had about 2 practices? Aha!

To pay up for the lack of practice we had, we were like REALLY nervous before performing. Punya lah cuak kte semua. Sampai chem tlg bwkkan keyboard keluar sbb I was really nervous. Aha! Thx(:

. getting their instruments ready

. doesn't it make u wonder what chem is trying to do? XD

. still getting ready...

We played the scientist-coldplay, dan sebenarnya-yuna and situasi-bunkface. Thank god we didn’t suck that nite. In fact, we were actually good. Aha! Not that I’m bragging but this is what I heard from the others too. Sean said the vocalist (bob) was quite good(:

. and so we played..

. and rocked ;)

. the crowd enjoyed it

. they danced, jumped, sang along. n masa lagu situasi ada org crowd surf skejap. that really felt good.

I had a lot of fun playing with them honestly. And I look forward to the next our next performance or at least jamming sessions. Haha! Hope it doesn’t end here(:

til next time ppl! chalos!~

first :)

haha! i've finally created a blog. setelah intan ngn kak long bising suruh buat blog. ;)
it feels weird writing out my thoughts. anyways, i'll update later aite! about prom about manja's bday and about melaka
chalos!~ :)